I don't know what's wrong with me these days but I am so angry all the time. Sometimes I am angry and I don't even know why. My anger is not even directed at anyone or anything. I am just angry.

I am kind of scared of myself because of that. Just the past week I had two anger spells, two instances when rage inexplicable just took over. They not only took people around me by surprise but they took me by surprise too. On the first instance I basically screamed at my friend for unjustifiable reasons. The second time I got angry at a Fido's representative because he cut the line after telling me to wait for five minutes and I pratically threw the phone across the room.

I feel like screaming and yelling and stomping and generally just being unsociable and unpleasant all the time, even when I am smiling or laughing some part of me still stirs. This really worries me. I am worry one of these days I will snap where impression really matters. Smiling is so hard when I am less happy than I should be. Being angry is so easy when everywhere may be a potential instigator.

I hope this is just a phrase. I hope this passes soon just like everything else. I don't know how I can cope if this worsen.

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