Ten minutes and I will be heading off to the church's spring camp. Can't say I am overly excited. Actually, can't say I am excited period.

I mean obviously I sort of enjoy the fact that I get to be somewhere else that is not home for two days, and I am excited about spring break, but I can't say I am really excited about this particular camp.

For one thing Vannessa, for the first time in two years will not be at the camp. I don't really blame her but that would definately make my days a lot worst. Here are some predictions about this camp:

-I will be bored during free time
-I will try to spend my free time alone but then I will feel rather silly since this is suppose to be a camp and so I would think I should move around more
-I will try to hang out of different people but will feel that I am not truely accepted so I will leave and go for another group
-I will read very little although I try excessively hard to read
-I will bring a lot of stuff to amuse myself but they won't really help stop making me feel lonely

As you can tell I am not at all excited about this camp. All I see is the feeling of loneliness. It seriously sucks. >_<

But then again I stop caring that much because really, this cannot get any worst than that 1998 camp where I felt excessively silly and dumb. Well at least now I will be able to amuse myself.

Oh right, today I went to the councelling office about universities, guess what the stupid counceller told me to do? She told me that she did not understand what I was saying and that I should go to a quiet place to figure out what I want to know. Stupid counceller maybe next time I should tell them I feel like killing myself and see how she will act.

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