Mood: Depressed

This is stupid, I can't get Laina out of my head, and I don't even understand why. I mean who cares if she doesn't hang out with me any more? It is only natural that she finds someone she likes better, right? Besides, friends come and go, I should be used to that by now... why the hack do I feel so much regret?

Geeze, I should just move on. Why can't I?

And every day I just sink deeper into depression because of this. Hack I had been depressed the whole week because of this. I mean it's not like I don't know how to amuse myself alone either. I know exactly how to amuse myself, but this non-human contactness is starting to get to me.

Well I suppose I do have contact with people - it's just that this depression is stopping me from enjoying people's company. I want to enjoy them you know but now a days I am just too depressed to actually enjoy anyone's company. Even during swimming I can't get out of my depression. Some times I just smile because I am afraid if I don't smile I will forget how soon.

I should enjoy Jex's company during lunch time and stuff, but in stead I feel more annoyed sometimes because her talks about her friend just make me realize more how lonely I am. I should also enjoy Regina's company more too. She is really nice, but then my brain is just so strain by everything. I don't feel like talking much now a days.

Sigh. I should get back to my homework.

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