I got a new shiny Dell laptop. Okay, fine, it's really not that shiny, and the stupid shell got scratched after 2 weeks of usage. But it's still new. Comparatively. It's a pretty good comp though for $999.99. It has a 80gig hard drive, Pentium M, 512 ram, etc, basically everything a frequent anime watcher like me needs to download everything. My only complaint is that it has a 15.4 screen, meaning this is very heavy. Since I need to haul it to school for some of my classes, it gets kind of irritating. But nevertheless a laptop is better than no laptop.

I am not a frequent blog reader, but happened to dropped by this artist's little live journal (http://www.livejournal.com/users/fanartist/). I personally think it is one of the better ones I have visited. That girl's life seems very similar to mine from what I can see. She goes to church and talks about church quite a bit, and the best thing about the whole journal is that it is clean like mine (for once, someone don't swear on the blog like me!! *gasp in utter shock*).

I haven't talked about church much these days. So I thought I should at least dedicate one post about church just to show I still go. I don't really know why I go there sometimes, since I always try to do something else other than listening during sermens. Maybe I go because I want to talk to those people there. Maybe I go because it is easier than argue with my parents. Maybe I go because of God's interferance. Who knows? The point is I still go every weekend to worship and often also to fellowship.

I still refuse to take the communion though, or get baptized.

See, logically, I think believeing in a God is beneficial in all ways. If there really is a God then you will be saved, and if there isn't a God it wouldn't matter at all. But still, can't get past something I don't even know what. It is not the fact I don't believe I sinned. Of course I sinned (cheat, lie, hurt people without me even knowing...). Everyone sins one time or another. That's not the problem. It is not the fact I don't believe there is a God either. Life is much more meaningfull and much less absurd if I attribute predestined aspects to a higher being. Even if we are only amusing chess pieces played by the God up there, at least there is a purpose for our existance. If there is no God, then life is just a random possibility, and completely trivial. Okay I can say a lot more about believes I share with the Christian community, but I am not going to go into that.

The point is, for some puzzling reasons, I am a frequent church going for the last 8 years of my life, but I still don't call myself a Christian. Good grief. I think I am insane (Jonathon is wrong, I am insane after all).

It is out. Oh my God. Can you believe it? The movie I have been waiting for a long time is almost here. Almost.

I have been so anxious about seeing it. Can't wait at all.

Oh my God. Where the hell did my youth go?

I am old! I can't believe I am going to university! It's crazy! Unthinkable. Just a while back I was still worrying about IB, now I am worrying about first year. My God.

I am having a blast at university though. I really like the system. It suits me quite well. To be able to do well if I put my effort into it, not a lot of homework, and for once I get to take classes I actually find very interesting. I like economy. I love learning about how to spend money. I love learning about people's behaviour! It's so cool. It's not so dry like learning about molecules, or organic chemistry, or the le-chatier principle.

I mean come on! I don't even find reading thick text book suck a drag anymore!!

And I met new people. They are all very cool. I also get to see a lot of old friends from Steveston, and friends from RHS. It's totally terrific! I even get to see Carol, someone I haven't seen for a very long time. Wow. Just wow.